Why We Appreciate

There is this feeling of appreciation pouring out of me, truly—I’ve had many fears, limitations, and anger, and there is this deep need to talk about the things I have known and experienced. To me, this blog is truly a way for me to disconnect, to share my thoughts and emotions—like my online diary. This is also a place where I can share with you products that I love, that I wish I would've had.

As a screenwriter and actress, expression is my art. I get to show up, show how my character feels. Today, I choose to share how I feel. How even I, someone that seems to have it all, sometimes struggle. But that’s not the problem. Everyone struggles. We absolutely all do. What we need is to overcome the way in which we face that struggle—the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that accompany it. Do we hold on to them, do we transform them, do we shy away from them, do we get scared? Or do we find curiosity, joy, wonder, excitement?

In my life, I have had many episodes in which I could’ve backed out. How I come to see my relationships with life’s situations and others has been a real learning curve. Especially when it comes to my romantic relationship and, I’ll say it: money. Being overtly emotional about these things, I find there’s a deep-rooted mental framework that is eager to be released. I’m confident that I am on a path to exponential growth, because the last year has been emotionally challenging. I’ve told myself to cry, to scream, to express, and more importantly, to feel.

Almost 10 years ago now (absolutely crazy to say), there’s this boy I had a crush on in college (now looking back, I think it was mutual) who told me I needed to do just that: to feel. He was eager to talk to me because he saw the go-getter in me (and I was cute, and vegan, like him). I was 17 years old and already an agent for my very own 14-model acting agency (I know, I know). Because I had blocked out my feelings and emotions as a young girl, the only place for me to feel was with my online friends—One Direction or creating websites, businesses like the one I have right now.

That advice, I kept very close to me and ran with it. Because not only did I need to express my big emotions, I also truly needed to feel them and then transform them. Not stay stuck just on the feeling. I want to use this blog to do just that. To talk about what it is I am currently feeling, going through, and being unapologetic.

I am looking forward to this journey and I want you to come with me. As you read through these posts, I want you to challenge yourself to think about them, how they apply to your own life. So I ask you today: where do you need to feel your emotions and appreciate?

Talk to you soon.

With love,
Cindy